Almost everyone can relate to the frustration that comes with insomnia. Every day on social media we see so and so “can’t sleep” or gave up trying, “who’s awake?” I wouldn’t say I have insomnia, really, most nights I sleep fine. I do have manic episodes, however, and they always seem to happen the day before I have to work a long day.
Last night, all the neurotransmitters doing their thing left me sleepless until 3 in the morning, which is way past my bedtime. Back in the day that wouldn’t have been such a big deal. My bedtime used to be when the sun came up. I would stay up all night, make breakfast, then sleep until whenever someone wanted to get together, or until the afternoon sometime. This was when I was unemployed though, and even if it was fun I like sleeping at night now.
Last night it was at least four hours trying to fall asleep. Yesterday I spent all day organizing and redecorating and dusting and scrubbing. None of it needed done, but I had a little bit of mania. When I saw that 8 hours or so of this had passed I decided it was time to try and sleep. Obviously this didn’t work out too well for me, but I tried. I know when I can’t sleep that I shouldn’t open tumblr or text or get something to eat. I turned on my fan, drank some water, and tried again.
One time in high school I stayed up for 5 days straight. I was also eating far too few calories, and that’s been linked to sleeplessness and a feeling of invincibility, almost like a high. I think it’s interesting. Anyway moving on happy springtime!