The Insomnia and the Mania

Almost everyone can relate to the frustration that comes with insomnia. Every day on social media we see so and so “can’t sleep” or gave up trying, “who’s awake?” I wouldn’t say I have insomnia, really, most nights I sleep fine. I do have manic episodes, however, and they always seem to happen the day before I have to work a long day.

Last night, all the neurotransmitters doing their thing left me sleepless until 3 in the morning, which is way past my bedtime. Back in the day that wouldn’t have been such a big deal. My bedtime used to be when the sun came up. I would stay up all night, make breakfast, then sleep until whenever someone wanted to get together, or until the afternoon sometime. This was when I was unemployed though, and even if it was fun I like sleeping at night now.

Last night it was at least four hours trying to fall asleep. Yesterday I spent all day organizing and redecorating and dusting and scrubbing. None of it needed done, but I had a little bit of mania. When I saw that 8 hours or so of this had passed I decided it was time to try and sleep. Obviously this didn’t work out too well for me, but I tried. I know when I can’t sleep that I shouldn’t open tumblr or text or get something to eat. I turned on my fan, drank some water, and tried again.

One time in high school I stayed up for 5 days straight. I was also eating far too few calories, and that’s been linked to sleeplessness and a feeling of invincibility, almost like a high. I think it’s interesting. Anyway moving on happy springtime!


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